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I was born in Denmark and was raised Christian in Jordan all my life (Learn
More), my father was a pastor of
4 churches, my mother is one of the strongest Christian woman leaders
in the Jordanian society. I was a youth leader in the church and I was a
supervisor in the church community for the Christian theology and I
know a lot about it but never narrowed my mind and put that dark sheet
on my eyes, I was seeking because I never found my peace till I became a
Muslim. And it took me a long process to be convinced in Islam.

It
started since I was a kid, I hated Islam, when I was in the 10th grade,
I saw one day a girl is praying, I kicked her and pushed her while she
was kneeling down (sajedah), I have fought with girls in high school and
I wanted to show them how educated I am, so I used to bring the Bible
with me all the time and read in loud, or write a verse on the board as
(today’s tip). When it’s Ramadan, I used to eat in front of the girls
while fasting (I ask Allah to forgive me and give me Mercy), I was a
serious trouble maker.

In
the eleventh grade, I remember one day we had an Islamic class in Zarqa
High School, and I wanted to stay and listen to the teacher, they said
that the Bible is Muharraf (interpreted and altered) I started to become
mad and I explained to them that the Bible has been written as 4
different books in the same time different places from 4 different
people (Mathew, Mark, Luke and John), so one of the girls said: “So
you’re saying that the evil spirit have written the books!” I got really
angry and I left the class and I didn’t want to talk to any of the
girls.

The
girls in the class were wondering about me and they wanted to know
what’s my deal, so they came and started asking me questions about my
religion and I was answering them and showing them in the Bible and give
them proofs to convince them about Christianity, until one day, the
teacher called me and asked me to stop talking about my religion because
it’s illegal, I told her that I have nothing to do with it, she said:
“I have a recorded tape of your voice talking to the girls about it”
that made me really mad, and I started to have not only hate but anger
and I wanted to bring all the Muslims to Christianity, I even invited my
Muslim friends to the church many times to convert them to
Christianity.

After
I graduated from the high school, I went to study in Mu’ta University,
year 1999, but I haven’t finished the whole year and I went out – by
Allah will – and I knew that the approval of the immigration to the
Unites States of America is coming soon.

Yes,
I immigrated to TX, USA year 2002, trying to start from the scratch, I
was going to the Arabic Dallas Baptist Church, and my uncle is the
pastor of this church. I didn’t like living there so my family contacted
a certain Christian family for me to go to Arizona and try to build
myself, but once I couldn’t find a financial support, the family asked
me to go back to Texas and stay with my family. So I went back home and
my parents with my little brothers went back to Jordan in order for my
father to continue his ministry in the churches, but I stayed with my
brother and my sister and I am the oldest. I found a job and I started
to study in the college. I kept myself going to the church, doing some
activities, even sending some programs to the church in Jordan and help
them out with the Bible studies for the Sunday Schools.

In December 2003 my father died – diagnosed by the Cancer, but that didn’t stop me from keeping myself going in life.

I
tell you that I came to USA to make some Christian ministries .. and my
aim was to reach the Arab Muslim and bring them to Christianity since
the USA is a free country and you have the right of thoughts and talk

So
.. I met some friends in the college and we started to talk about Islam
.. And I know the Bible from the beginning to the end, I was arguing
hard trying to convince them about Christianity.

Until
they brought me the guy Mostafa Belhour - who is my husband now - to
debate .. And it started to be like a race with him since he has great
knowledge about Quran and Sunnah .. And I didn't like him at all. Most
of the time, we were adding gas to the fire and sometimes we reach to
dead ends, he was a real good speaker .. And I am the stubborn. I
finally got tired and exhausted.

Anyway
.. My mom was coming on Sep 2005 and I thought it's a good excuse to
get away from the debate because it started to make me so agitated ..

For
me it would be really insulting if I loose the debate .. So I told my
friends .. I need to go!! but that guy called me by my name and said: "I
need a proof" I asked: what are you talking about? He said: "search the
whole Bible .. You will never find one verse that Jesus says about
himself that he's God .. He never said(I am God)" .. I found that it's
my opportunity to tell him about Christianity and bring him to Jesus
(who I believed that he's the savior and the son of God)

I
asked with a sarcastic method: "what are you talking about.. Of course
there is tens of verses say that Jesus is God" .. He said: "show me the
proof" I went home and that question stuck in my mind.

I opened the Bible and started to search, then I went to some internet resources, then to some books.

Then
I asked my mom and I went with her through a discussion .. she said:
"well there is no specific verse laterally saying that Jesus said about
himself he's God, but he said; (whoever saw me saw the father)" I said:
"but the father and the son are not the same" she said: "but you know
that they have the same level in power as they are a part of the Trinity
(The Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit)"

So the 1st one has no proof .. Now let's go to the second one: Jesus is the son!

I
started to search more .. I found that it's written in the Gospel - in
the Bible - called "John" this Equation: "in the beginning, the word was
with God ..." ok?? So the word is Jesus who is created from the
beginning and he was WITH God ..

Then the same verse says: "and the word was God" John 1:1 so hold on!!! God = (equals) Jesus and God WITH Jesus

ohuh
.. Wrong mathematical statement .. How the heck would Jesus be God and
with God at the same time? This is not something can make any kind of
sense

So
I left that verse for a minute and went to another one .. To the 1st
letter of john chapter 5 and verse 7 says: " 7For there are three that
bear record (witness) in heaven, the Father, the Word, and the Holy
Ghost: and these three ARE ONE. " I said yeay .. Here is the proof, The
Father=The Son=The Holy Ghost (Spirit)

Then
the next verse 8 says: " 8And there are three that bear witness in
earth, the Spirit, and the water, and the blood: and these three agree
IN ONE." The Spirit (Holy Spirit), The Water (The Father) and the Blood
(The Son). How would it be 3=1 and 3IN1 at the same time .. It’s just
completely different meaning.

3=1
means they are all in the same level, the same power, the same *******
(i.e. The water has 3 different mentalities liquid, solid and gas) and
3in1 is like 3 relative people carry the same family name but they are
completely different people with different mentalities and
personalities.

In
addition, if I believe that God is 3, then why would I have one
creation? For example if I get 3 artists to draw a tree for me, each one
will have his own style and way of drawing that tree according to his
way of thinking, and if the 3 in one God are creating the creature, then
each one of them will create it in a different way, even if they have
the same aim, but they would create it in their own way!

Anywho!
I said there are some conflicts in this Bible, where did I get this
book from?? I know that Jesus called himself the son of God because he's
Jewish and it's not something new that the Jewish call themselves the
"children of God" and they are humans

Jesus
was sitting by himself and pray! Who was he praying for? For himself?
He was calling God, and the scripture of the Bible show that in
different places, for example: “ 25At that time Jesus answered and said,
I thank thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because thou hast hid
these things from the wise and prudent” Mathew 11:25 “39And going a
little farther, He threw Himself upon the ground on His face and prayed
saying, My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass away from Me;
nevertheless, not what I will [not what I desire], but as You will and
desire.” Mathew 26:39 “42Again a second time He went away and prayed, My
Father, if this cannot pass by unless I drink it, Your will be done.”
Mathew 26:42 “23And after He had dismissed the multitudes, He went up
into the hills by Himself to pray. When it was evening, He was still
there alone.” Mathew 14:23 “44So, leaving them again, He went away and
prayed for the third time, using the same words.” Mathew 26:44 “35And in
the morning, long before daylight, He got up and went out to a deserted
place, and there He prayed” Mark 1:35 “46And after He had taken leave
of them, He went off into the hills to pray.” Mark 6:46 “21Now when all
the people were baptized, and when Jesus also had been baptized, and
[while He was still] praying, the [visible] heaven was opened” Luke 3:21
“16But He Himself withdrew [in retirement] to the wilderness (desert)
and prayed.” Luke 5:16 “12Now in those days it occurred that He went up
into a mountain to pray, and spent the whole night in prayer to God.”
Luke 6:12

In
additional I had that memory flashed in my mind when I was studying the
Christian theology .. A British professor came to our college and he
was teaching us the history of the Bible script .. And I remember he
said exactly: "well ... I went to the museum in England to see the Bible
manuscripts and all what I saw torn, burned lost papers spread allover
the place" so what is that in my hand?

And where all those words came from????

If I am going to worship A PERFECT GOD who is the complete of everything how would I believe in imperfect book???

This is not right!!!

I
started to think .. If one day lost all the holy books in the world ..
and we asked people to get a new exact book. There is no body can get an
exact book of the Bible because we have too many versions, and they are
still discovering new different scripts till now .. But I can find may
be a million Muslim can bring me an identical Quran who is kept from the
beginning .. Isn’t that amazing!!

Then I went through the theory of crucifying Jesus on the cross .. Did he really die??

I
started to think of the Gospels that we have between our hands is it
the real Bible?? The ones who wrote the Bibles are Jewish people who
followed Jesus Christ and wrote a biography about him .. They saw him
dying on the cross .. Is it necessary to be the same person on the
cross??

The
verse in Quran says: "shobbeha behi" “157. That they said (in boast),
"We killed Christ Jesus the son of Mary, the Messenger of Allah.";- But
they killed him not, nor crucified him, but so it was made to appear to
them, and those who differ therein are full of doubts, with no (certain)
knowledge, but only conjecture to follow, for of a surety they killed
him not:- 158. Nay, Allah raised him up unto Himself; and Allah is
Exalted in Power, Wise” Quran 4:157-158 so the people who saw Jesus is
someone who looks exactly like Jesus ..

So what we have in our hands is only a biography of Jesus 75% or more of it is altered

And now I got the result in my hands: Jesus is not God, not even the Son of God .. I got scared and I started to panic,

All those years ... 24 years in my life that I was studying is only a theory

24 years worshipping the wrong God

24 years went as a lie!!!

I wanted to kill myself and I felt that the ground that I am standing on is just shaking and I felt so scared

I
wanted to go back from the beginning and start my search all over again
to prove the opposite .. I went so quiet .. Don’t know what next!! I am
destroying my life ..

I
started to think .. I believe in Jesus now that he's only a human and
he's a prophet from God and I believe in all the prophets .. I have one
problem with Mohammad (Peace be upon Him)

I
never exposed about his life and all what I know is things that the
Christian planted in my mind .. But how the people praise him all the
time as the greatest prophet??

I
said.. How could be a problem and the holy book Quran came from heaven
through him (Peace Be Upon Him) .. He must be really special .. So it's
not a problem to believe in one more prophet ..

In
addition that I know there is an illegal Gospel called Barnaby that the
churches don't believe in it because there is the verse were Jesus talk
about the next prophet called Ahmad!!!

I
left my room after great meditation and thinking about it and searching
.. And called my old friends who didn't see me for 2 months ..

I
went to see them at home and I was praying to Allah and crying: "if
that's the right way, you change my life .. If it's not so let me die
now in an accident before I reach my friends and take me to heaven .. I
am looking for the truth and I am calling you to take me to heaven
whatever happens"

So
I reached to my friends and I have tears in my eye .. And they thought
something happened .. And there were my husband (the debater) .. They
were waiting a word from me to tell them what happened .. I said:

اشهد أن لا اله الاّ الله .. واشهد أن محمد رسول الله
Ash-hadu Anna La Elaha Illa Allah, Wa As-hadu Anna Mohammad Rasool Allah
I declare that there is no God but only One Allah, and I declare that Mohammad is the prophet of Allah (Peace be upon Him)

For 2 minutes they were quiet with no word

They looked at me and my husband started to laugh like crazy

He said: shut up .. Don’t lie

It was October 3rd I believe

I said I am not lying and I started to cry

He
said.. You said the other day that if you say the shahdatein (the
Islamic declaration statement) with no believes that won't let you be
Muslim!!! Don’t be lying

I
said: I am not lying .. Tomorrow is the first day of Ramadan .. You are
going to teach me how to pray and make wodoo2 (The washing method) and
everything

When he heard me saying that .. He hugged me and started to cry like a baby

And
really I learned all that in one night .. And I bought a hijab (vail)
and my other girl friend showed me how to put it on and everything

I hide my Islam for two weeks ..

During
that time I went to imam and had the shaahdah (announced my Islam) and I
was learning from the Quran and trying to make some comparison from
both books and it was hard for me at the beginning to leave the Bible ..
But il hamdullelah (Thanks Allah) I am over it now

I hid my Islam from my family and I was praying at night 2am or 3 so no body can see me doing anything suspicious ..

One
day I was going to school and I had my backpack with me and have my
Quran and hijab .. Suddenly my hijab fell down from the bag on the
stairs at home and my sis was behind me, she saw it but didn't know what
is it till night when she woke up and saw me praying, so she told my
family members .. And here comes the trouble

They
yelled at me, insulted me, called me words and used the fraud language.
They hit me to death and threatened me and I was calm, but leaved the
house praying that Allah lead them to Islam.

I
lived about 2 months with my girl friend .. Until my husband Mostafa
and I got married il hamdulellah (Thanks to Allah) .. I lost my family
but I gained a new Muslim family at the mosque who took care of me and
really helped me ..

I
went through a lot of depression aftermath because of that beating ..
Till now I still receive at least 25 phone calls and emails – daily -
from all over the world insulting me and threatening me and all that

Other
than the phone calls that I receive .. I even have debates with the
biggest Christian Professors (in the Christian Theology) from Jordan and
the USA on the phone .. debating about religions and trying to bring me
back to Christianity.

subhan
Allah (The praises are for Allah) ... I used to hold the Bible in my
hand and they have the Quran .. now the table has been turned around!

However
I learned a lot from this very short time .. I learned something called
patience and humbling .. and I meditate now and think of the stories of
the prophet Mohammad (Peace be upon him) who was insulted and how did
he take all that .. my story is nothing to him and wow .. I learn a
lot..

I
probably lost my sharaf (The Noble honor of the family) and honor in
front of some people but I am so proud and I have the sharaf coming from
Allah .. and amazing! You can’t imagine what kind of happiness and
peace that I am living in even all that insulting ..

I
really changed than before .. I am a completely different person ..
even my husband noticed that. I learned how to be quiet and patient with
people even to the ones who insult me all the time .. I learned how to
smile in the worst and hardest times .. even if lost my jobs .. but
Allah is compensating me with everything

it's
all about to have the intern peace inside you .. you really can't find
peace from people around you, not even by your environment .. it has to
be by your convention and by your mind .. by loving Allah and giving him
your heart. If you worship Allah and follow his orders, you are
certainly going to be happy because the sins make you feel guilty and
they take your peace away

I
look at the people faces and see their tears, sadness; because they are
away from the Creator.. sometimes I see their hearts are dark and they
can't let that candle burn in them because they are so much caught with
their problems and busyness in life.

All
what I know now, my aim in this life is to worship and pray for Allah
and follow his orders and rules, and make good works for His Sake.

I hope you enjoyed my story and be strength for your soul



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